But its been a little hard with the limited internet access and just being plain busy.
Life back in the United States has been pretty good.
I do miss Japan a lot but there's nothing like being home. =)
So today was the first day of a diet Isaac and I are doing.
Before anyone comments on how diets get you no where and "All you need to do is watch what you eat and exercise" I will let you know that I know that's true but there are some of us who don't really know what healthy is. We have an idea but its hard this day and age to really know.
AND I cannot count calories. I can...but when I was around 16 or 17 I was so completely obsessed with what I ate. Counting calories is just not a good option for me. I get into a really really negative mindset about myself.
I was starting to feel like I had no real hope for losing weight.
I haven't ever really eaten badly...But my genes just make me a little bigger than other girls. I've always been bigger.
Being heavy wasn't ever a problem for me until this year.
When Isaac got deployed it was really rough on me.
I broke my elbow,my house kept flooding over and over again. Plus there was a big life changing thing thrown in there. And I was completely and utterly alone for most of it. I just didn't know how to cope. And phone calls (even though they were amazing!) just couldn't make up for being so alone. I stopped going out so much. My arm hurt so I quit going to the gym. I didn't really start eating more but I wasn't moving much either.
So the weight just snuck up on me. It has been terrible.
I have been so horribly hard on myself...and that just made things worse.
So I knew I needed to do something...ANYTHING to try and get the old me back.
Like I said I was losing hope on losing the weight and then one day I watch the Dr. Oz show.
I never watched it day to day...just because when I usually do I think I have whatever disease he's talking about. But this day he was talking about this Diet that has gotten really popular over the last 10 or so years.
I was thinking..."Oh great...something else I can't do and will just depress me."
But then he started to describe it and how it worked. The more I listened the more I thought "You know what...I think I can do this!"
It was like how in a movie, a character suddenly gets motivated and awesome music starts playing in the background. I do wish I could fast forward but...ya know step by step.
He and three other doctors sat there discussing how it worked and if it kept the weight off. He also had people who were just starting the diet...were in the middle and has finished, on the show.
The best part was how each and everyone of them said "I never once felt hungry" I mean how many of you have started a diet and just thought you would die of hunger? I know I have.
And I get SO mean when I'm hungry.
So I finally decided I would at least read the book.
I never in my life thought I would be buying a diet book...and Thank God for my Kindle because I would have NEVER been able to actually go into the store and buy a diet book. I just know people would be thinking "Oh look at that fatty..." =p
So today was day 1 and although I probably would have killed someone for a cookie or a slice of cheese I feel really really good.
I wasn't hungry...well I mean I did get hungry but I was able to eat until I was full and being able to do that on a DIET is amazing.
I'm hoping I can keep this good attitude going and I'm so thankful to have the support I have from Isaac.
He didn't care whether I went on the diet or not (Awwww) but he also knew I needed to do something to be comfortable with myself.
I just know things will be looking up from here!
=D
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