So naturally when things arise that I have zero control over (or so it feels to me) I crumble.
I morph into this bundle of crying nerves. It's really quite terrible. No one ever wants to witness it. (Poor,poor Isaac.)
Today...we made the official appointment for Penelope (My Mini Doxie) to get fixed. This was not easy for me to choke down. I've wanted her to have puppies ever since I got her. She is beautiful and has the BEST personality.
But things have come up...and I have no choice.
The thing is I'm terrified of taking her in to get surgery. All I can think of is her being away from me and scared. It just makes me so upset.
So after I calm myself...I find out some things about when we fly home.
You have no idea how hard it is to fly pets back. It is horrible. Some people have told me..."Well just leave them. You can buy another when you get home." When people tell me things like that it makes me so angry.
My dogs are my children. I've had Penelope for 3 years and she has been my constant. Whenever Isaac had to leave she would be there. Then we got Luna,same thing with her. I honestly hold them up higher that some peoples actual children. I have even said before...if my dog doesn't like you,I won't.
So all this stress is killing me. I cannot WAIT to just be home...with Isaac and my babies.
Whatever it takes they are getting stateside.
Penelope is having her surgery on the 4th. (the 3rd back home) so I know it's silly but pray for her...and pray for me, because I know I'm going to cry like a baby having to leave her at the vet.
Luna will be having the same surgery in a few weeks...I just don't think I can handle having two of my babies laid up at the same time. This is going to be tough.
Sam, Grady, and Biscuit...have all had surgery. 2 kids and a dog. They all did great. Now me...I think I'm still damaged! lol. It is hard watching someone else suffer. But after it is done, they will be fine. The only thing for Biscuit...after her surgery...she barks all the time now! lol. I think they adjusted her 'barker' while they were in there!
ReplyDeletehaha Penelope has the barking thing down. But only if she thinks something is going on without her. Otherwise her favorite activity is sleeping. I'm just worried about leaving her. She has bad separation anxiety from me. Yeah Go Figure...I've passed that right on to her.
ReplyDeleteI was terrified when one of my kitties had to have surgery. I was scared because I wasn't with her to hold her. I will say a little prayer for you and your babies =] I hope she recovers quickly!
ReplyDeleteThank you. I know. I HATE leaving them. But its either her have this surgery or be left in Japan for good. =/
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