So...in the first post I talked about my anxiety and how it could literally trap me in my own house.
But yesterday was a good day. I couldn't wait to leave the house...get out in the world. And actually be around people. I wasn't performing show-tunes on the street or anything...BUT I was outside!
It was just one of those days where I felt free.
I actually ended up going to the BX twice. I tried on some clothes...looked around. Bought coffee.
I felt as if I never get scared of leaving my house.
If you would have saw me you wouldn't have guessed the few days before I was huddled in the corner of the video store just trying to find a way to put a movie back without drawing attention to myself.
Days like this...they give me hope. Why should I let my fear control me?
Why is that question so easy to ask and so hard for me to answer?
All I want for this year is to become a better me. I know its going to be scary. But I also realize by locking myself in the house isn't going to help my feelings.
I'm not sure I really have a point for this post. I guess its just for me.
And lets face it...with Isaac gone and it just being the dogs and me...what do I have to talk about? I can always post a video I have of me finding Penelope snoozing on top of my new entertainment weekly that just happens to have Johnny Depp on the cover.
Until I have more to say.
So long.
Now for a valuable lesson.
And days like that should be posted about. To remind you on the rough days that you can do it...even if it's not on that day. yay. (clink of glasses) cheers to a scare-free day!!
ReplyDeleteIt's days like this that I want to reach out and hug you and tell you how happy I am for you. You have come along quite well and we (as in me and LO) are proud of you! Look back on these days and remember how far you've come.
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